Tuesday, April 20, 2010


That's the new term Mr. Stick and I have been bandying about that encompasses my descent into the hazy, hot-blooded, teary-eyed fog I go into when I'm "under the influence." :)

I'm a little less whacked out this go-around than last - DH is trying hard to be more patient and sensitive with me, and my acupuncturists put me on a different herb regiment to keep me "cooler." I can tell that I'm less edgy, but I'm still getting super hot at night.

Dreams have been really odd and disturbing again. Last night's was kind of gross, so you should stop reading if you're squeamish. I dreamt that I got my period and was passing...plants. Yes, plants.

I have no idea what to make of it - if I think of it one way, it seems to suggest fertility. But if I think of it another way, it seems like everything is a lost cause down there. Or maybe it's just because of all the "stick" references in this blog.

In other news, I've just learned that two friends are both pregnant with their first. They are few years older than I am, so DH thinks that this bodes well for us. Maybe, but I somehow doubt they took 2+ years to conceive. At this point, it's like comparing apples with oranges. I know age matters and all that, but infertility is infertility.


  1. I'm glad Clomid is being a little kinder to you!

    The bleeding plants is pretty funny to me! I think it does suggest fertility, but also maybe just the strangeness of paying so much attention to everything in that area?

    I hope the pregnancy announcements were not too hard on you. If only other people getting pregnant had any bearing on our own chances! But alas, like you say, apples and oranges.

  2. I am going to agree with your DH that when women older than yourself get pregnant, it is encouraging--- yes, infertility is infertility, but younger+infertile is always better than older+infertile. When everyone you know who is getting pregnant is younger, well, that will be the sad day! But that is many years away, and you have plenty of chances for Clomidia to have its way with you before then. :)

  3. I'm sorry the Clomid is giving you a hard time. I remember when I was on it and it didn't affect my moods as much as it affected my sleep. I had horrible night flashes which made me cranky, which led to me being in a bad mood.

    Wow those dreams were weird.

    Clomidia - :D love it!

  4. The plants dream made me giggle too. I'm going with fertility!!!

  5. Haha plants.

    Well plants are all about growth and life so it makes sense it to me.